Meds review

It's been longer than I thought since starting on Cymbalta for my anxiety. I've recently been given an increase in the meds, which is probably a good idea, as I definitely feel better within myself the last couple of weeks.
It's been a hard month, a lot of stress and lack of sleep saw me end up at the end of my rope, so to speak.
So, the physical symptoms are once again under control, well 95% anyway, which is half the battle. I've learnt a great deal from the various psychologists, psychiatrists, doctors and the like lately, perhaps as I've felt more balanced I'm able to absorb the information now.
I'm now tackling it from another angle, realizing that a lot of the physical reactions my body may be having a false affect, tricking me into thinking a panic attack is coming, when it really wasn't even a blip on the radar to begin with.
Eating regularly, balancing my blood sugar levels, all these things I must concentrate on now, as well as returning to drinking water, especially now as the drying winds of winter have arrived. I've been walking Jas to school lately as opposed to catching the bus, it is working, I can notice my clothing becoming looser.
More work needs to be done on the mental and emotional. Constant self-reassurance that even though I can't see the difference, I am changing.
What also needs to change is either peoples' "good intentions", or my reactions to them. I can say all I like that others' opinions don't phase me, but I lie to myself, they do. Can I change other people? No, of course I can't. Can their perceptions be based on the realistic, the everyday? It seems not. Some people are just plain mean, but if I can send my kids out into the world accepting everybody for their base values/spirit/personality, then I've at least done my job in raising them.
I can't change what you say, what you think, or how you feel, but I can change how I choose to deal with you from now on.
I want to regain my voice, my spirit, my confidence. I've made promises to myself in the past, I swore I'd never again be a doormat. I've let myself down in that regard lately, but sometimes you have to try to work with the situation you've got and hope things works out ok.
Seems life runs in predictable ebbs and flows for me, not the greatest point atop the flow chart coming up for me in the near future, but I'll great through it, something keeps me coming back for more of life's crap ;)